Good Morning

Wednesday November 10th- "Mama look at the rainbow- Mommmmmmy come look, come look at the rainbow" is how I woke up this morning at 6:30am.. to Sophie yelling at the top of her lungs-
Friday November 12th- an hour past her normal wake up time, Chad goes up to check on her... what is it she is doing? "looking out the window at the airplane"-

Goodness isn't life as a child so simple, delightful and intriguing? Life as a parent is so amazing that words cannot describe- and you just know what I mean, don't you?

I had a chat with someone today, and putting my two cents into the conversation (as I always do- sorry friends that I am an "interrupter") it was discussed about how we have so much planned out for our children, we want to teach them right from wrong, lead them down a successful happy fun filled life, we want to protect them from harm, from making mistakes, and correcting those that they do make- but we can't... all we can do is teach them, help them down a path and hope they make their own choices that we can be proud of.... and this is not always the outcome is it? Sometimes they make horrible errors in judgment, they go down dark and harmful paths, they stop listening, or worse- stop contact all together.....

We have all been children, we have been someones little girl or boy- their baby! We have all made mistakes, we have all been down a wrong path and turned back from time to time... we have spoken ill words to our parents, been disrespectful and hateful at times...how you and I have changed that are different-

I look back at my life growing up and regret things, but would never change them... every mistake has made me learn a lesson- has helped me become the person I am today.. has helped me develop relationships with others, and figured out what I want and do not want in my life... I am proud of who I am, I am proud that I can look back and say this is the lesson I have learned, I am proud that I overcame obstacles and turned away from the dark and harmful paths and went towards the successful, fun filled, sunny pathway :) I am proud to say I am an amazing friend to one or two of you, a wonderful wife (I can say this because I know Chad wont care to read this ever lol), a supportive sister and proud to say most importantly that my family is proud of who I became too! My grandmother who lovingly raised my sister and I, would be proud- and I never got to hear her say that to me, nor will I... but I just know :)

So with that, I know and can say proudly- that my children are going to make mistakes, and all I can do is teach them and lead them down the road- they will choose their own paths... and I have my own hopes, dreams and aspirations for them.... but I cannot make their choices, or teach them their lessons, or bail them out of trouble every time- all I can do is to stand beside them no matter how loving, or hurtful they may be at times and be a mom... that is all I can do and hope for the best! Environments mean a lot, life lessons, and family rules are essential... but in the end- they are the ones in charge of their choices!

I hope to be my children's inspirations- to be their role model... that is my hope and dream for them!

So my comment to you- is be like Sophie for a minute and look at the simple things that we take for granted everyday- look out the window and see the rainbow- or the airplane- or maybe the bluebird in the tree and just appreciate it for a moment or two... that is the lesson I will teach today :)