Knock Knock

Sophie: Knock Knock
Me: Whose there?
Sophie: Pear
Me: Pear who?
Sophie: PEAR!!! (laughing hysterically now)

It occurred to me the other day.. my daughter has been telling me knock knock jokes... yes my 2 year old daughter that has a vocabulary of a 5 year old... and yes it just occurred to me- where did she learn that? I asked around the family and found out that last week there was a show my grandfather remembers telling a knock knock joke on it.. and that was it.... so miss smarty took this short segment of television and has turned it in to a daily bit... and she understands how it works... her jokes are original and funny to her!

Where has the time gone? Really???  She has always been my baby.... and after I had Caleb, when I first saw her- I looked at her so differently for many weeks. I stared at disbelief on the size of her- I couldn't believe how tall she was... how thick her legs are (cute chunky)... how BIG her hands were... when did her eye lashes get so full and long? She has these beautiful round eyes- when did they get so large? She looks like a tiny little adult.. is she supposed to? When did she grow up???

My fear during pregnancy #2 is how I would love my children...would I treat Sophie differently? Would I love #2 just as much, or push Sophie aside??? someone told me this that always stuck...
you will love them differently.. and for different reasons and that is okay!!!

I love my children- and that statement is so true... I love them differently but the same. My love for Sophie as my little baby did change... I loved her for who she has grown to be right now. For this exceptionally bright, beautiful and tall 2 year old who acts like a kindergartner... and that's my down fall, to my love for her..... She is so high functioning- and understands complex things for her "age" that I take it for granted when she acts her age.... that's all I can complain about haha- that my child acts her age!!! Having a conversation with her and to hear her replies, questions and her understanding of it, you would be amazed sometimes... so when she tells me why she doesn't know why she is in timeout... or refuses to pick up her toys... or hits me and yells at me... I get frustrated because she is SOOO smart and intelligent that I expect her to be able to follow the rules all of the time.

I hope to reflect on this daily and change my expectations so I don't set her up to fail.. now or ever!

So in sum, my love for her changed... but a great appreciation for who she is has grown! I love her differntly then Caleb.. and differently then as I did before Caleb.. and I cant explain it with words. As a parent- you understand :) I love my babies.. and Soph will always be my little girl- my favorite first child :)